Wake up check

Wake up
I'm up
normal time
when the alarm sounds like a warning
the body takes a min
but my mind alert to take a survey
where are we today?
mind long from all my interest
ambition overstretched
Vacation overdue pass due
In debt and my body too
In debt of overwork and less progress
the easy way or no way
easy later brings complications
Check memory for something sweet
in 2013 a beautiful face
meets me for lunch
takes me for pizza
and I provide a moment of silence
brain volume high
he talks louder than I expect
I kiss him because he takes me for walks when I need it the most
he dances for me
I appreciate it so much I can't thank him enough
he laughs at how I seem to be different than he expected
He can't take his lips off of me
I block him out
I tell him he will be amazing
and disappear
memory blank of the fights we had
take the good forgive the bad
leave him with a vibe and a new love
my name shawty 225
718
too far for him to know love
212
and he can only see glamour in my walk
I tell him about my dreams he dreams with me
I put  dreams in his hand and hold them one last time
tell him I'm sorry he never appreciated the love in all the places he frequented
he taught me my iris is where I kept the fear and love
I evaluated it's true
I fight the babies in his eyes
he questions why
2025 you will be happy when you're ready to be a dad
that 2013 I wasn't your baby's mother
spending all my time on all the things you ain't want to tell me
I took up all the packages of minor thoughts you ain't want to consider
you still run fast
I still walk and slow you down
I tell you slow is more than enough
I don't want to miss a thing
Lights go so fast
rarely do you get to see it so slowly
Slowly shows you who is for you and who just needed to brush past you.
I might walk backwards to see how many knives been waiting
it took me a minute to walk this way
loops
I find loops
I expected loops
and lack of confidence
I still haven't lacked confidence
I haven't conned myself with thoughts lately
I ain't need them
Sudden looks of disappointment seem to find their way on my face
they feel downloaded
my face in need of kisses but my lips ain't long enough
Transferred kisses from my hands
still, ain't enough
someone find enough
I need to hear a record or two
I need to kiss the way I move
I find sense in sensory awareness
Kiss the hands that make shit
Because labor can take more than a paycheck.

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