BLACKLVER

To see it in the gaze A maze of all the pebbles of love  Was the game  Never too often played  Amazing to see Love a launch pad  Only to bounce off the insecurities If ever brave To walk the key to the door  That opened up much more  To see a (more) Leave well enough alone  Till it is fully grown  Never whisper to it  Home  For even those are quick to go in a maze. Run  Like the sentence never really said Never fully written Like the ticking  To itch for much more  Twitch  Allow it not to twitch  To give consistent stream to it  Like water in a settlement  I learned even elements Prefered never to reflect it I will refrain from reflecting it and allow it to tell me finally The choosen keep their place And the calm is much more than taking up your place  But leaving grace  Grace what a taste it has been to never truly win with trut...

2019 I will attempt at controlling my black rage I will allow room for the repetitive speech The same verses The same hooks For my mind to not take lyrics personally  To squeeze into anthems like size 6 jeans on my size 14 ass I will not scream my voice a baritone hum of symphonies so sweet my roar has always scared me I will play the peacock when I feel the need 2019 has yet to dance with me instead, it keeps telling me to do my feet Listening carefully it's a hard lesson in loving me irritation a sign that you view an outside source just as powerful as yourself the cognitive moment of fight or flight I will not use words not able to fit into your conversation to prove to myself my brain works A new day is presented every day instead, I will observe the root kiss my tongue softly in its presentation For so many find it beautiful to speak in such a way that connection is frazzled to create chaos for the thrill of power drains power in every direct...

Virtues a quality considered morally good or desirable in a person. Moral concerned with or derived from the code of interpersonal behavior that is considered right or acceptable in a particular society. Interpersonal relating to relationships or communication between people. Tell me why you are afraid of my dissatisfaction did your mother tell you I should always be satisfied with you? She lied I'll wrap my head when you want to rest next to my noggin Keep your thoughts  This is where we will not share them Your train of thought  I don't think we are going the same way  I was raised to first please myself before I ever please you  I was told to respect my purple before I reign on you Rain on you Raindrops and morning dew You decide how much my love outpours on you With every action and word with every man, you align your political mind to Do not scream I love you when I disagree with you  Keep your class and spea...

Baby when I use to love you There was nothing that I wouldn't do I went through the fire for you I remember I played the fool There was something about a brother man I couldn't understand No matter his hue you could smell the coco butter and shea butter mix even when it was his mama using it I had to train my eyes not to look and touch Like a new born He became my new porn addiction I wonder if he brushes against my skin Will he remember as much as I do? If he ask me to bend do I play like my body is a broom And if I bend for him I'll break Instead I'll stand up straight His ears too small for his face He could not hear me say Am I black enough for your taste? His disgust and curiosity blended taste I ate His side conversations and ambitions Tried to get every Good female to mention his name Ushered them into his arms Into his charm He never noticed a thing Like when I stop wearing the steel ring The symbol of him supporting my dreams A team...

Cole say, Ask her, her body count then times that by 6 I say times that by 12 When that number disturbs you  I'll ask for yours You will lie because you only count sex with your girlfriends All your situation-ships will go unremembered Like they are not worth your memory  You will only point out where you buried the hearts  Not the body parts you love to lick  Instead, you will pretend that with me it was the first time again Like the savage really died with them but for me, you would rise again 47 times 12, please 564 imagine 564 people all men marching into my vagina and they are all dead bang bang  and I'm gone again That's what I see  When I see you, I imagine each vein in your body must have popped for a different one The truth is I don't trust a man not to be a slut  It seems to be the excuse for the last century  A woman can't act like a man I don't, I finally acknowledge, ain't nothing...

Conscience Con-Science Is it possible? I want to meet him  The man whose mind is full of theory  So I may lick his frontal lobs  It was beyond the time  to create orgasm in a man's mind before lifting his manhood to the size To activate his left and right side with logic and creation  If I have bitten the fruit  apple of your eye  you have kissed the juice one hundred times I have picked a plum on the nights you lack bone  given sour a new home  Chemistry  A changing release of chemicals caused in reactions of natural and unnatural circumstances Magnesium  To clean out the things before me that have not left your belly  You can not eat what your tummy will not taste Do not touch a plate First base  Speak your mind so you may eat what you say  Leave them nowhere near my face until you are sure  Of a certain degree that your chemical is not a venom in heat Repeat i...

When all the luck fails  Gamble Today I looked down to see if my heart was okay Gamble Life is a gamble Sometimes simple seems uncomfortable I haven't seen simple I haven't seen it in a while  I don't think it likes my style I usually stay single  I don't want to hurt nobody's child I'm too in love with smiles I function differently  Man say's pain makes you alive Someone let him borrow a womb for a while Adrenaline hit different when you have the capacity to birth a child Would you make them the same? Your thoughts left in the pink matter ready to bring to life the deeper parts of your mind Dear bring forth a child that smiles Adventures and hugs that styles their insecurities until those eyes reflect back beauty and love  Be cautious to define love  how it changes suddenly or swiftly  slow and incognito  the capacity of their hands can bring forth or tear it down  that power starts as a...

Wake up I'm up normal time when the alarm sounds like a warning the body takes a min but my mind alert to take a survey where are we today? mind long from all my interest ambition overstretched Vacation overdue pass due In debt and my body too In debt of overwork and less progress the easy way or no way easy later brings complications Check memory for something sweet in 2013 a beautiful face meets me for lunch takes me for pizza and I provide a moment of silence brain volume high he talks louder than I expect I kiss him because he takes me for walks when I need it the most he dances for me I appreciate it so much I can't thank him enough he laughs at how I seem to be different than he expected He can't take his lips off of me I block him out I tell him he will be amazing and disappear memory blank of the fights we had take the good forgive the bad leave him with a vibe and a new love my name shawty 225 718 too far for him to know love 212 ...

Birds of a feather Flock together I've never seen a flock of eagles What a sight A bird's eye view of life  Of all the shoes even the ones that ain't the right size but Eagles are hunters they use a width span to see where the food is Whenever you do things alone I can see how you have to get it on your own eyes peered on delicious things but they keep calling everything stolen Rabbits viewed so innocently  The eagle preys and they call that the food chain the eagle died to preserve the health of  the small beast  eating the vegetables  Eating all the green I figure life alone from so high up  makes you dance a different set of morals the beauty of the gathering  a sight to see but   Bald Eagle spread not your wings or they will run instead, pick a tree farther than little eyes can see and breath take in the summer breeze winter breeze autumn leaves springing forth a beautiful thing a...

Pretty teeth Keep them clean  Pretty smile  Pretty things Behind a pretty smile Beautiful Mind Behind it all a bunch of lies I lie to myself all the time When I say it's okay Okay is a word that puts a bandaid on  the feelings that resurface  on the surface my face still beams with lights so bright they blind behind the fade a fist that punches and kicks  like boots made for steel ready to fight at mercy's will I will fight back tears I will fight back black tears my white tears my colored tears my water is mine I get to keep my water after you have taken my love  taken my vulnerability  taken the best in me and left me with lackluster looks I get to keep my water I will keep my water To drink the salt of my wounds To drink the fresh of my tongue To wash my hole To wash my holes  because when you testify to say I'm insane when you tell them about the crazy girl you laid with yo...

Friend, do you remember when you had a healer for a boyfriend? He would want you to cry for him but all you could do was smile for him You wanted him to stop making everything right for you  To see your ugly truth the way you see you You would twist like a pretzel  Step on his mind just so he would run from you We talked about that daddy bruise The weak sensations you saw your mother through how your eyes reflect what you wish she would do You told me, eat my mango matter of fact eat spicy fruit I disliked the word, Mareno so it took me a while Instead, I found some band-aids for his mind he liked the brown kind Do you still look like a vampire? He always loves that side of you The part not afraid to bite him when he is sarcastic and a bit rude He still thinks of you I know he does  My voicemail is full just like I'm used to I heard your booty grew  I heard you miss me too I finally ate Mexican food Ate bad gyal food Loved...

As surely as time has pass  My tears become yours Place them in your right hand  Tell me when the salt starts to burn those are the tears that hurt  Don't forget when your hands clap together Rather it is to pray  or Beg  or in approval of what's said Insecure is the cause of most tears Tears of laughter taste sweet  They are the heart screaming in approval of what the eyes finally can see but insecure  is something leaving a place it fits perfectly in It can sometimes lead to a bigger place  only when the truth has hit it a chemical is released  it makes complexity out of chaos  like whispering, I love you into water then let the temperature drop the water will not forget the love instead, the ice will make something new out of it. snowflakes that change with every drop When your tears are not for me I know I won't say a word  I'll let them flow  because when snow falls no one c...

The record plays Inside these dark tones my Sun Ray's A prayer May the powers that be protect you and love you unconditionally May the lessons  learned never burn but propel  you forward May little prayers add up to daily affirmations May small conversations make bigger thoughts May your ego never grow so your mind continues to expand May you find helping hands In the morning I wake up I'm not one for makeup But I'll say a little prayer for you because you need me to You seem to need someone to pray for you Laugh for you Smile for you But here is a secret I pray no one does it for you I pray life tickles you till your cheeks hurt I pray your silence brings an amazing amount of peace and even an endless amount of love Not the kind you know but the kind that's been locked away Like the type rapunzel hides Or the princes find Even though it's no storybook life I pray someone cuts your dragon's head off if he isn't as nice as Jake long I...

This car seat never had more heat then the day I had to sit in it even though it wasn't me This the first time I've seen real tears in your eyes I never wanted to see you cry Too strong and our friendship too open for too long To hit the lock on car doors but for you sure I will hit the click on my seatbelt and let you use me to explain in every way as a man, it is not okay to hurt this way but I'm here for you Tell me if you thought the color was pink or blue I'll hug your way through because the words "it would be my baby too" seem to beatbox on your lips and my dear I'll play the witch so you can say all the things you want to say because grief works both ways You do get a say so in the way it hurts I'll sit in the hot seat even if I didn't heat it up Because who am I not to allow you this the chance to finally scream "that bitch" I'll hug you after I can tell your lips have been burning with it "it's ...

Best friend I used to think I had best friends People that knew me well I didn't know me well enough I didn't know it was possible to have enough Enough of half love Enough of half of anything  I could eat half a pizza and feel great again Rhyme O I think I love to do that  but recently I realize nope I am just full of it Full of words that hug together like a chainlink I am full of words I have also been full of action Lately, I have put away action Put away all the things I thought I love Like passion I had too much I am powered with nothing  Nothing but what I am  Energy, Different types of energy  I have been putting a reservoir of energy away For someone amazing I'm not too sure who it is  But I learn more and more every day I am by far more than I perceived. I am love. Something still being defined something always finding new meaning

He said," I'm a better man than my father" She said, "I can't tell." He said, "He ain't shit" She replied, "You are the shit" He said, " I know" She knows  She knows that there isn't much of a difference  just a list of things you want to see differently. Like the little things you wish he did for your mom  The fact that you stay around hoping he will come around All the little ways you appreciate your mom  Even when he seems to forget the meaning of her name but she knows you are the same you forgot to forgive him for being human for being less than a perfect man  even when the blemishes in you make you a less than a perfect man  you hate him so much you forget to accept her for who she is for all the flaws and blame she is willing to give but will not take Like it's always his fault in your face it shows  the tight eyebrows whenever you go to that place You still believe yo...

If I drew a line and you decided where it ends and begins Will I have to draw another one to continue what I was doing? If I draw a circle with the ends that touch you won't be able to tell much  about the curves that add up Like the curves that are continuous When we all are the same Where should I place my creativity? Next to your divinity Next to the place  I should sit and show my face Pretty Face no place for brains The pretty body no place to build Indifferent, too different  But the same in only the ways that cause me to understand Your existence  Belongs to you Your existence is a gift to me Something borrowed Something new something dangerous to pursue that's the beauty that is you No explanation for the things I care not for but abuse It is abuse to ignore anyone's truth I acknowledge but will not adapt it belongs to you like a home visit I will leave it the way I came Leaving only my company to be had again...

Spelling I N T Internalization eternal I/E Is it me or is it everybody? Is it I or everyone? Discrimination within the tongue If I feel I am better than all the things I have not become than how am I to ever enjoy them? English Inglés Can I say I love everyone? At your best you are love. I love that about you. ləv Love turns everyone upside down hubun sounds too close to husband fik’iri Sounds more like fuckery Love has killed me at no cost to any participant Love can create many things maybe if we never use the word it can live up to the meaning Back to black Back to the base back to see my face It's starting to be straight and curved curved around something new something better than my hue Hue Hefner Ladies of many shades that needed to be more than a heifer Heifer Female cow, a young female, who has not yet birth show your tittes before they drop Before they start to reflect what you are not Young...